Open my eyes!

Today i found myself thinking(yes i do think and yes i'm talking to you :P) about how i always complained about my life, about everything works wrong for me but if i look at the all picture i've been a lucky bastard all my life! My parents always gave me everything that they could and sometimes things that they couldnt really afford to give me but somehow they manage it and ok since i was 16 they made me work on summer but now that i think about it, it was a way of giving me some responsability and some freedom because afterall if i get my own money i can buy what i want and at the same time i learn how to manage money... well on thtat second topic i have to admit i wasnt a very good student... and only now that i came to Romania i learned to be responsible with money because shit happens and if i dont have any spare money i will be screwed.
Anyway... i look around and i see people here, younger than me, that have to study and work. They study because they want to get a good job and they work because they really need to! And unlike me, an all life crying baby, they always have a smile on the face and they dont complain!
My staying here in Galati is being a great lesson for life! We can't take things for granted we have to work really hard to earn it!
I always had this feeling about a song like it was trying to say me something, that song is called Open your eyes by Guano Apes and now i get it.
Open your eyes MArco!

Halloween Party review lol

So... yesterday we had a Halloween party here at home! It was pretty fun :) lots of people, music, candy, chips and lots of alcohol (specially for me :S)
For me at a certain time was a bit complicated because i started to think about my life, about what i want... whatever... yesterday i didnt get any conclusion but today i think i finally got one... I cant really make things happen in a instance, i have to be thankfull for what i have and for what i get and just let life take its own way and if anything at all its meant to be it will happen sooner or later! I have my goals and i'm not going on the right direction! i have to leave my bubble... i will leave it and maybe next year i will be wearing it as a halloween costume :)

Anyway in the end it was a good halloween party

I really have to start writing here interesting stuff... there is so much to meet and since now i already got everything going on its way on the faculty i just hope i receive my erasmus scholarship this week like its supposed to be and find sometime to discover this beautifull country :D

this alien today as to get some rest... halloween its hard :P

P.S: Note for myself: I was supposed to be Harry Potter in the party and i shouldnt perform the "making disappear alcohol" trick so often

halloween and some other stuff...

Today is Halloween yeay!!!! trick or treat? hehe in a while i have to start preparing everything since i'm having a party in my apartment but right now i just want to relax :)
I guess it will be fun, the party, 3 americans, 7 romanians, 1 spanish and this portuguese alien, lets see hat happens lol

Changing the subject... yesterday i realized that i'm beeing a little selfish, i can't think that i'm the only one who as problems, who as questions, who feels bad... others feel that way too and i should support more like i get support... i will, i want to, its a promise! Afterall life is about giving and getting :)

This alien as to get out of bed now! so c u soon on a next post... maybe tomorrow to tell about the party :)

over and out

u get to choose the title...

I have so much to say about the last few days but at the same time i just dont know how to say it! i'm having a problem with comunication i guess! :P
There's one thing that i'm sure... i'll stop going to clubs here in Galati... Everytime people ask me to go because "this time u will really enjoy this club" but in the end i hate even more than the last one... its just no my type of club...
There are certain people around here that are ok but most of the times they dont seem to care about what i think... whatever... dont want to talk about it and dont want to think about it...
I'm also having some issues with my feelings... i dont know what i want... and when i think that i know i just get scared... :S and also is so strange... sometimes its like paradise and then suddenly its real life... oh well... i guess its just how life goes and i have just have to deal with it...
Oh Well life is beautifull... :) i just have to take what it gives to me and be thankfull :)

one month!

So it has been one month! One month since I came to Romania!
Eventhough i had some bad moments (specially on my mind :S) i only have great things to remember.
I met this amazing girl, beautifull as well ;) lol, who become my best friend around here... i can't really imagine my life without her, i dont want to... Its good to have you around Roxana :)
I also changed from the university dorms to an apartment with a spanhish guy called Julian, a great friend since the day we met too.
Can't Forget also Traian and Dana from Couchsurfing(CS), amazing people! good friends!
David from France who i meet on a CS meeting too. And so many other characters that i've been meeting around :)
Oh cant forget about Cynthia, a friend of Roxana, doing volunteer work near Galati, Great person too.
I miss a lot my family and friends back in Portugal but with all this technology around i get to talk to them a lot :)

It feels good to be here! Can't wait until I go to Portugal obviously but I really think that when i get there I will miss Galati...

One month and counting...

time to change!

Today a new week starts and with it I will start a new way of living. Enough with all the suffering, enough with all the pain! I have to start enjoying life and all the good stuff that comes with it otherwise I will end up crazy!
well thats all lol... i just had to write this :) maybe i will believe it when i read it :P lol

This alien is out ;)

a real alien

Yesterday for the first time since i'm in Galati i really felt like a Portuguese Alien in Galati... I dont know what the hell is wrong with me... I dont seem to fit anywhere, eventhough everybody try to make me feel like part of the group i always find myself so far away on my mind... where?? i really dunno... i think i'm still trying to find myself and its so hard!! :(
I guess my biggest fear as rised... i promised myself i wouldnt fall in love just like this, specially because i'm afraid of falling in love and dont get feedback and now i think i'm in love and the other person doesnt feel the same...
How i wish live was more easy but its always so hard! I realize sometimes we have to suffer to achieve happiness but why do i have to suffer so many times??
Well... i guess i feel like shit again!
I wish i had courage to say this things face to face but somehow i cant... i cant and thats my biggest problem... i'm afraid of the consequences... too afraid...